I
especially enjoy reading about the experiences of those who
have personally freed themselves from religion.
In
fact believe it or not one of my few regrets in life is that
I never had such a chance - my family was always atheistic,
and despite many, many years of attending church services as
a choirboy and many serious efforts to try to "find
god" as it were, I was never able to succeed.
Still,
I am enormously grateful for the fact that my philosophy on
life has been allowed to develop according to my own choices
and desires - that I was never influenced so heavily by a
particular cultural phenomenon that my vision of the joy of
reality was clouded.
If
I ever occasionally find it petty that occasional
evangelistic individuals express their 'pity' that I am
missing out on something great and life changing (not to
mention lining myself up for eternal torture!), it is always
worth reminding myself that it is they who are missing out.
I
often wish I had the strength of conviction and abilities of
persuasion necessary to be evangelistic myself. Reality is,
however, a much harder message to sell than religion. The
rewards are barely tangible, require more effort to achieve,
and the only 'ultimate goal' is that whatever reality you
find and experience is only a fraction of what there truly
is. Whatever you know, there is always more to know, whatever
you believe, some of it will be wrong and of whatever you
desire, much will be unattainable. However, the sense of
relief that comes from accepting this is truly rewarding.
Even
better, the sense of satisfaction that comes from trying to
understand why it is our minds are necessarily fraught with
limitations and unrealistic expectations should help anyone
to realise that is the miracle of all miracles that we are
able to comprehend the world at all. If the immense forces
and the incomparable beauty of nature could be considered
spiritually fulfilling, then the marvel of the human brain is
what I think deserves the greatest awe and inspiration. In
its weaker moments, it has created religion, war and hatred,
but in return has given us science, medicine, art, and music
(my own personal source of what, for want of a better word, I
will call spirituality).
The
capacity to create destruction and unhappiness will probably
never leave us, but I do believe we all have the ability to
restrain ourselves from acting with those intentions - that
one-day rationality and reason will prevail in sufficient
quantities that we can put our differences aside and focus on
what unites us. We are all part of humanity, and the harder
we work towards that day the sooner it will come.