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Old 13th January 2017, 09:52 PM
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In many cases, not all, whenever I walk at a park or pass by strangers, as I quickly glance at their faces - quickly enough to avoid staring, somewhat they seem indignant for a few seconds - this includes involuntary smirks, or so. This has been the case for the last few decades, since I entered high school. Coincidentally, a day earlier at home, when I had some arguments with the family, on the day, I encounter stern and suspicious expressions on people around - other expressions include offensive staring, superstitious fears and being bold when they see me. These days, I could best surmise that it is to do with ephemeral, instantaneous interchange of hormones between people, but I do not have psychological knowledge to verify that. However, even when I was irrational, I often imagined that they were already watching me on their TV as if hidden cameras were already around wherever I existed - or that my family have already told the news to the public without my knowledge - at worst, there could be gossiping going on that has misled people into forming wrong perceptions about me.

All these unclear incidences probably were the strong reasons that led to my onset of psychosis, as I was too overwhelmed and became unable to rationalise and draw accurate inferences, investigate and find answers why these happened and what was going on in these people's lives as to why they often made strange facial reactions to me. These incidences were real as I made observations with the naked eye - and wanted to pursue why these were happening to no avail as I was forcefully put on medication prescribed by my psychiatrist - as a result of prolonged medication, my ability to think and rationalise has become impaired and have ever since started developing 'spiritual inclinations' and 'warm fuzzies making me feel closer to god'. It was prescribed medication that has made me less rational and more religious after all.

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Old 13th January 2017, 09:56 PM
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Is it possible it's the other way round, Azu? You reading such negative emotions or thoughts into quick glances at peoples' faces doesn't seem to be something about them. To me, that would be a sign of a problem, if you don't mind me saying?
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Old 13th January 2017, 09:57 PM
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Is it possible it's the other way round, Azu? You reading such negative emotions or thoughts into quick glances at peoples' faces doesn't seem to be something about them. To me, that would be a sign of a problem, if you don't mind me saying?
Please tell me more! I am very keen to understand if you have any ideas to be able to account for these strange incidences - please tell, thank you!

It would be great if there is a psychological literature on this kind of incidences. Is it correct to consider them as examples of 'emotional intrusions' as per one of my friends?

Another assumption I happen to form is that these people were traumatised by their dreams when they slept, in which I was one evil, wicked and horrifying person in a way that could be harassing, bullying and raping them - something that I would never ever do and have never subscribed to doing so all my life, and as far as records during my entire walk of life have shown, I remain innocent and a good-natured person always, with slight caveats. So it is very strange when I encounter expressions on their faces, especially traumatic and 'hatred'.

However, a more sensible reason would be that whilst unconscious of what I've done earlier to these people, however extremely trivial, subtlest or not, these people seemed revengeful and reactive - perhaps they were too touchy and sensitive enough to be irritated by the most harmless, unintended and slightest manners of behaviour I've done - whether these were laughing, smiling and even humming whilst commuting between streets.

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Old 13th January 2017, 10:06 PM
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Please tell me more! I am very keen to understand if you have any ideas to be able to account for these strange incidences - please tell, thank you!
Well, please take what I am saying as no criticism at all of you, nor as being the words of someone with any form of relevant training.

However, I do have members of family with mental illnesses.

My cautious suggestion is that there was no such emotion in the people you saw, but that feeling of them being surly, or snarky or whatever is probably the product of some problem with your mental well-being, a type of paranoia.


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It would be great if there is a psychological literature on this kind of incidences. Is it correct to consider them as examples of 'emotional intrusions' as per one of my friends?
Well, if what I was saying is correct, then yes there's the plenty of literature on the subject. You, yourself, used the term 'psychosis' which I suggest is not the result of these interactions, but the cause of you sensing these things from strangers and family.

Additionally, the situation with the feeling of being the protagonist of the Truman Show is exactly what my aunt experienced and she was very ill due to it as she stopped trusting anyone - actually, she thought everyone wanted to kill her.

I would hazard a guess that theistic leanings are a small price to pay to be free of such confusing and worrying feelings!
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:07 PM
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Another assumption I happen to form is that these people were traumatised by their dreams when they slept, in which I was one evil, wicked and horrifying person in a way that could be harassing, bullying and raping them - something that I would never ever do and have never subscribed to doing so all my life, and as far as records during my entire walk of life have shown, I remain innocent and a good-natured person always, with slight caveats. So it is very strange when I encounter expressions on their faces, especially traumatic and 'hatred'.
You are indeed a good-natured person, Azu. If you weren't, then you wouldn't be held in such affection here.

However, I would suggest that these people thought nothing of you - just another person in the crowd - but you misread their emotions. A kind of hyper-empathy which goes awry.
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:11 PM
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My cautious suggestion is that there was no such emotion in the people you saw, but that feeling of them being surly, or snarky or whatever is probably the product of some problem with your mental well-being, a type of paranoia.
I strongly feel that I am being paranoid and yes you're right and spot-on. But I've never raised my 'social' paranoia, let alone auditory and visual hallucinations at the onset of my psychosis.

Yes, snarky is a more accurate word that I'm trying to find to describe these people's expressions.

Well, it would be good and I'd be surprised if these people didn't really have any problem with me, and in fact it was my mental illness as the sole cause - this would certainly change my thinking and attitude so that I would be able to ignore what I observe and feel free to socialise with these people without any sense of hostility.

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Additionally, the situation with the feeling of being the protagonist of the Truman Show is exactly what my aunt experienced and she was very ill due to it as she stopped trusting anyone - actually, she thought everyone wanted to kill her.
I've to read about Truman Show because this seems to be a critical point that I need to understand and research on for my own benefit.
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:14 PM
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You are indeed a good-natured person, Azu. If you weren't, then you wouldn't be held in such affection here.

However, I would suggest that these people thought nothing of you - just another person in the crowd - but you misread their emotions. A kind of hyper-empathy which goes awry.
Sorry to derail but I'm quite surprised if not flattered that you consider me a good-natured person - I already thought until now that I am an apparently neutral person in most people's perceptions, let alone being a slightly dumb person for not engaging with others in a substantive way as expected, as to why most posters seem indifferent and apathetic from engaging with me on this forum - unless you're trying to console me, ha.

I like the assumption that I could be exercising hyper-empathy, and I'd be surprised and happy if I was really misreading their emotions - so this would change my attitude in hindsight not to worry anymore.
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:15 PM
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Well, it would be good and I'd be surprised if these people didn't really have any problem with me, and in fact it was my mental illness as the sole cause - this would certainly change my thinking and attitude so that I would be able to ignore what I observe and feel free to socialise with these people without any sense of hostility.
Assuming what I said is correct - while reiterating the caveat of not being a professional - then I would say it's actually a very common symptom of a type of mental health problem related to psychosis.



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I've to read about Truman Show because this seems to be a critical point that I need to understand and research on for my own benefit.
You can watch the film. It's a comedy with a punch in the gut. Truman actually is being watched all the time, his whole life being televised globally every day. However, the them is not about mental welfare because he's just totally unaware that this is going on until someone tries to step in and help him. However, from family experiences, I know that this is an actual feeling people with paranoid delusions experience, and without medication it tends to get worse.
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:17 PM
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Sorry to derail but I'm quite surprised if not flattered that you consider me a good-natured person - I already thought until now that I am an apparently neutral person in most people's perceptions, let alone being a slightly dumb person for not engaging with others in a substantive way as expected, as to why most posters seem indifferent and apathetic from engaging with me on this forum - unless you're trying to console me, ha.
No, I mean it. I expect you'd find that many people here feel that, and, to be honest, sometimes feel a bit concerned about your well-being.


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I like the assumption that I could be exercising hyper-empathy, and I'd be surprised and happy if I was really misreading their emotions - so this would change my attitude in hindsight not to worry anymore.
I would bet my life-savings on that being the case.
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Old 13th January 2017, 10:24 PM
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Add to the entire thread as titled Causes of Strange Facial Reactions, I also want to raise my another issue seriously. It is that, as per my another counselor, I have an hallucinatory issue, called 'thought-broadcasting'. Before he found this term to explain my situation, I was complaining about how I found myself subtly singing or speaking in my head in a manner that I supposed was inaudible for anyone, even a meter apart. That said, I happened to find myself being heard by these people who were near as if they could read my thoughts. Alternatively, given my hearing disability (which is compensated for significantly via something but I'm too shy to disclose here so please respect my omission of these details), I could be speaking a little louder enough whilst deliberately only sing/speak-imagining (the same way I imagine others to sing or speak) that these people could still hear - I could never know. The most conspicuous manifestations of when I found myself being heard or mind-read by people around were when these people in front, walking in my same direction, turned to inspect who was singing behind. This remains very mysterious to me.
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