c2105026
6th May 2010, 04:27 PM
Well.....
I was born into a christian household in 1983. I went to sunday school, where I played up a bit - interesting for at school I was actually well behaved. Anyways, my parents and I kept going to church until age 9. At which point I announced I would no longer go. I announced it to my scripture teacher at school (BTW the church was uniting church), and she tells me of how jesus came to her in the hospital and confornted her with all the sins she had committed.
Anyway I trundled along until in 1999 at the age of 16 I became interested in buddhism. In senior high i did not drink because of this. When I went to uni this dithered, and one holiday out of bordeom I actually read the bible.
Now things get interesting. It was around this point I discovered I was queer. This made me feel alone and awful. In 2003 I eventually became an alcoholic and a compulsive overeater.
My drinking escalated until march 2004 when i self-diagnosed myself as an alcoholic. I joined a local AA group, and began working on the 12 steps. My buddhism kicked back in, however, my bulimia picked up. Whilst i did not drink again for some time, my eating binges included much meat, which is a no-no in buddhism.
In late 2005 I watched the film 'the life of brian' on tv, and felt that the madness displayed there i was copying through my allegience to buddhism, an organised religion. Hence I became a unitarian. I mentioned this on the 2006 census.
In may 2007 i was in the local Target one night and saw richard dawkins 'the god delusion' on the shelf for sale. I bought it, read it, and promptly became athiest. It was the only thing that made sense.
However, things only became worse. I started drinking again for I stopped going to AA, and my bulimia continued. This generally led to a culmination of events in july 2009 when I had to leave my civil engineering career and my other town to start a new life. I undertook training in a new career (primary teacher), stopped smoking, and life has been slowly improving.
One factor that has lead me to negative behaviours is my self loathing due to my sexual orientation. NOT A SINGLE RELIGION, IN ITS PURE FORM, ACCEPTS QUEERS!!!! Hence I feel much anger towards religion.
I was born into a christian household in 1983. I went to sunday school, where I played up a bit - interesting for at school I was actually well behaved. Anyways, my parents and I kept going to church until age 9. At which point I announced I would no longer go. I announced it to my scripture teacher at school (BTW the church was uniting church), and she tells me of how jesus came to her in the hospital and confornted her with all the sins she had committed.
Anyway I trundled along until in 1999 at the age of 16 I became interested in buddhism. In senior high i did not drink because of this. When I went to uni this dithered, and one holiday out of bordeom I actually read the bible.
Now things get interesting. It was around this point I discovered I was queer. This made me feel alone and awful. In 2003 I eventually became an alcoholic and a compulsive overeater.
My drinking escalated until march 2004 when i self-diagnosed myself as an alcoholic. I joined a local AA group, and began working on the 12 steps. My buddhism kicked back in, however, my bulimia picked up. Whilst i did not drink again for some time, my eating binges included much meat, which is a no-no in buddhism.
In late 2005 I watched the film 'the life of brian' on tv, and felt that the madness displayed there i was copying through my allegience to buddhism, an organised religion. Hence I became a unitarian. I mentioned this on the 2006 census.
In may 2007 i was in the local Target one night and saw richard dawkins 'the god delusion' on the shelf for sale. I bought it, read it, and promptly became athiest. It was the only thing that made sense.
However, things only became worse. I started drinking again for I stopped going to AA, and my bulimia continued. This generally led to a culmination of events in july 2009 when I had to leave my civil engineering career and my other town to start a new life. I undertook training in a new career (primary teacher), stopped smoking, and life has been slowly improving.
One factor that has lead me to negative behaviours is my self loathing due to my sexual orientation. NOT A SINGLE RELIGION, IN ITS PURE FORM, ACCEPTS QUEERS!!!! Hence I feel much anger towards religion.